No one is passing judgment, its just a real shame that someone with such a great writting style, tone and diction has to lean on a disability excuse. You could make big money writting press-releases. But yeah thank god you dont have to work anymore and your getting that free pension.

Congrats on the good news in regard to the pension. God bless and I'll keep you in my prayers.

Leaving Los Angeles would undoubtedly help. You could also move overseas, and buy a beautiful house and have private nurses for a FRACTION of what you must be paying there, as in a very comfortable life can be lived on $1,000 a month. I know that you probably have attachments to LA, but, it sounds like you are desperate and need to get out. Plus, it's less polluted.